Voice Out

Nursing

It won’t be soon before long. But I am again facing the same dilemma that I faced before. My heart is shouting something yet I became deaf and eventually learned to be nonchalant. Ghaaad, Daniel?! Still, you’re facing that same issue again. “Never you mind, I have learned to like Nursing anyway” As of now, It’s No Big Deal. Somehow, it’s true, I have eventually learned to love or at least like my course. I have been through a lot because of this, I surpassed all of them, and I know that ill be facing some more. I must prepare myself and be ready. I wont deny that I enjoy having Hospital duties and all that. But what if I followed my heart earlier? Maybe my present being would then have become less complicated and then I wont have to face all of this.. Maybe…. But I wont be a coward, I’ll continue the fight. I will go and find my victory and make my parents happy. Through that, eventually, I’ll find the inner peace within me..

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Outside…

The memory just slipped through my mind.. I can still remember that for once in my life, I felt that I was really out of place and that It seems impossible for me to find my worth. I’m neither here nor there. I’m ambiguous. I don’t have a space. All that’s left in me is my belief in my mindset that ” It is good enough to be what you really are.” Somehow it helped me find the solace within me, the strength to follow my stride and to resolve the negativity around me.

• Bully- I was once a victim of bullies, for once I never thought that I’ll overcome such incidence in my life. It gave me shame and a lot of inferiority.
• Being out of place- 5 months of being tortured by mere silence, your presence not felt. Tantamount to being not there at all.

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Happy Father’s Day

Happy Father’s Day Papa. I really do appreciate what you’re doing for our Family. Thank you for always making us feel special. I am very thankful that I grew up through your Good Upbringing. I miss you so much. Hope to see you soon.. I love you.

*my father is working overseas in London.

To all the Father’s out there, Happy Father’s Day!!!

thoughts 101.. blah blah blah..

Back To School — Waw!!! hahai.. Back to school once again and I don’t know what to expect. Maybe Im only half excited blah blah, because of the incentives that I’m getting from it.. lol.. Is it all about the allowance? hehe.. Somehow, I missed those sleepless nights where I am revising for the exams.. teehee. I will miss my block mates last year.I will be with my new block mates this school year and I hope I wont have a hard time adjusting cause I have to admit, I am a bit intimidating at times and I dont usually mingle with people I don’t know just so I have a companion?.. hehe.. (Makes friends!! hows that?!?)_______________________________________________________

Adsense — Im getting a bit excited about this Adsense thing.. Cant wait to reach the hundred dollar mark and have my first ever Pay Check!! Only a small amount but a big help for me to sustain my excess luxuries in life.

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Blog Hopping — I must admit that sometimes, I find blog hopping more pleasurable than writing a new post.. lol.. I want my post to be read by more bloggers as much as possible thats why I dont post everyday. Gusto ko mga 2-3 days un post bago mapalitan ng bago. Matatabunan kasi ng ibang post yung iba then di na mababasa ng ibang blogger, lalo na those who blog hop once a week lang. lol. Enjoy naman tlga mag blog hop eh., kaya nga blog eh,, We all want to share our thoughts so we post and read other posts as well.. ganun lang un.. blah blah..

Blogs that I hop in frequently ( hop? palaka ka ba?? lol)

• berdeng kamatis
• carmigz
• bianca gonzalez
• onang
• philosophical bastard
• sintunado
• pucking off
• ate jackie *(bagong dagdag!!)
• baylon

madami pa kong nililibot eh, nakalimutan ko lang yun iba…

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Thank You’s

– I want to thank my co-bloggers who keeps on telling me that my blog is great and inspiring.. I am so thrilled, ecstatic and HAPPY to hear such feedback’s from you!! Your blogs are great too! It is such a rewarding thing to hear that from you guys.

We keep on posting, we keep on reading. Lets keep on Growing, lets do this forever!! lol

have a nice day!

Its all about Independence

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY!!!

– I greeted you guys advance happy independence day twice. (courtesy of twitter) Now that its the exact anniversary of the independence of our dear country, let me just tackle some issues coinciding it. You know people, I am not really a political person but I think it’s just okay to talk politically just this once since today is our very own Independence Day. I dont have that much to say about it but let me just share my opinion and thoughts.. Since today is the anniversary of our freedom as Filipinos, it is a good time to sit and think.. I dont really pay a lot of time thinking about the issues of our country, sometimes I think I dont pay attention at all.. thats because for once, I despise the way politicians handle and govern our country.. i always thought to myself, that Filipinos will always be Filipinos and well be forever be a part of the so called “third world club”. I was really disapointed, maybe because I was thirsty for a change, a change that will benefit all of our countrymen in all walks of life.. Now, I am hoping that someday, that change will come, poverty will lessen, and there will be less hungry children roaming our streets. That change may not happen today, but if we Filipinos will change our mindsets, continue believing and help each other.. that change may happen gradually, and soon we will all feel the true essence of being free.

P.S– what a cheesy posts.. lol

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Self Independence…

When I was a child, I only have limited options in life. I enjoy playing with peers, going to school, and being valued by my parents. As I grew older, the list of my options grew longer and longer. Before, it’s all just about laughing, crying and sometimes being pushed around. That was before.. when I was still a child. Well, not today. Sometimes, I cant really believe how fast time flies.. before, I was just a kid who cries and seeks comfort through my mom. And then I became a teen and somehow became so carefree as well. Now, a few years later… no drastic changes happened really, but somehow, we seek for our own “independence”. I am not dumb, i know my own limitations. I know perfectly well what I can do and what I cannot.. In a way, I am a bit independent, i do make some bold decisions and stick to them. Sometimes going through that bold decision had led me to victories, sometimes to a fall- down as well. My parents were always there for me and I know that they will always be. I am not ashamed to concede or surrender and run to them for help. I am independent, only in a different light.

“kahit ang isang Guidance Counsilor tumatakbo din sa isa pang Guidance Counsilor pag may problema.. better yet, sa magulang nila”

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Thank You’s

To my new friends here in blogger, you know who you are.. Thank you so much for extending your arms and for your warm welcome!! Also, to those who always leaves a comment, thank you! I really do appreciate it!

One Step at a Time..

Good Evening Guys. Maybe this post will wrap up my whole saturday. I just want to leave something here before I sleep. A few hours back, I was so busy constructing the banner of my blog, I just want it clean and simple.. Ofcourse, a catchy tittle to match the picture.. The tittle is “One Step at a Time”, honestly, It has a whole new different meaning to me, especially now that I think I have gone through a lot these past year.. I have been through the High’s and Low’s of life, made a lot of mistakes and eventually learn from them. Having through a lot of wrong decisions or more so “mis-step’s” in life somehow made me feel inferior inside to the point that my self esteem is out of nowhere. Pressure is always there, not to commit the same mistake again. Now, I am quite happy to say that somehow, after all the bumps in my head, i havent acquired an amnesia but I finally learned instead. “No matter how smart you are, you will still and will always be susceptible to a “mis-step”. So ill just take my time and not rush things. One single step at a time is enough to take me there..

Hater’s- Out of my way!

– For me, there is a huge difference between being a critic and being a hater. Ofcourse, you will all agree with me right? No need to explain, we all know perfectly why, period. I just want to thank all the people who have spared their time to pay attention and see what I have in store. Most importantly, for being honest to tell me my mistakes and shortcomings. In that way, I will be able to be a better person. My critics at school, blog, and in real life-Thank you so much for showing that you care because you want me to improve! NOW, to my hater’s out there, you know who you are, and this is for you.. Now, everybody got an opinion now, but it ain’t no thing to me.. You hate me, and say derogatory things about me. One thing’s for sure, you are definitely not comfortable of your own skin and you want others to feel miserable as well. As, for me, I have grown and and sticked to my mindset that ” I wont stop just to please someone else’s needs” comprende??

Thank you’s

I just want to take this opportunity to thank my Parent’s and my mentors as well,.. You have dedicated a lot of your time watching me grow and you never failed me. I have made a lot of mistakes but your consistency proved that you still and will always believe in what ill be. You may never be able to read this, but Lord knows that i’ll forever be gratefull to him just because I have you..

Looking forward (and not)

Starting this month, I have a lot to look forward too. I dunno, I just get so excited when i think of it.. teehee, sometimes I cant even control the excitement within me.. A short list, so here it goes:

- June 18- My new ipod! atlast!! after ages of wishing and wishing, my dad finally got me one, but he’s in london so i have to wait till june 18 kc dun plang uuwi yung isa nyang friend.. isasabay lng.
-July 6- Christina Aguilera Concert- haha., whaaat? the ticket costs 7,000 plus, whew, makaipon kaya ako? i dont think so, but still im excited.. lol
-July 13- Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix movie.. yipee!!
-July 21- Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows (Book7) Yes!!! March palang nka reserve nako sa National bookstore eh, (excited?) a bit.. pero just to make sure na hindi ako malalagay sa waiting list pag nagpalate pako, just like what happened to me nung book 5, 2 months ako naghintay kc nalate ako magpareserve.

haay., 1st sem nanaman uli, and im not that excited, coz that means new blockmates nanaman.. hehe., ano ba ko, cold blodded? cant adjust? no. di nman, kaya lang, nakakamis nman tlga yung mga peers.

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I also stumbled sa isang site called yeepe.. there, you can chat with your fellow Filipino’s around the world.. kaya lng, some of the chatter’s there are a bit rude and not to mention, horny.. dumb? haha..

www.yeepe.com/chat/pinoy_chat.asp uy, magch-chat na yan