thinking over

I’m really out of words every time I try to contemplate to come up with a post regarding my feelings when it comes to fulfilling my dreams. Maybe, I was so anxious about it over the years and and as I try to put my thoughts into words, part of my mind just want to hide it and for me, its not doing any good.. Thats why, right now, I am trying so hard to brag about it. At least to share some thoughts with you..

This coming school year will be may last year in college and one year is very short.. Short in a sense that, my time to decide or deliberate rather solely, independently, all by my self  about pursuing my pasture for a greener one is really coming close to needing a concrete and firm answer..

Yes, I am talking about the Medicine thing. I had brag about it here a few times already and I am bragging about it here again for the thought is really pressing into my nerves  more and more these days.

I am just a bit anxious with regards to my feeling of reaching my dreams. I mean, come on, we all have doubts inside us right?? but the problem with me, honestly is that sometimes, I have simple doubts that tends to become large and it affects me a lot..

I really want to be a doctor but there are some factors that made me think twice on weather I should pursue it or not?

… I’m just an average student, I am not keen into memorizing but I am a wide reader.. hmmm, I guess it kind of make sense that success is not purely based on intelligence. Okay, Im not gonna be plastic, I maybe a bit above average (except for math!) but sometimes, I really do tend to get bored and that results to sleeping instead of reviewing.. hhmm. well, I guess I really need to have a lot of initiative.

I am thinking about the expenses  if ever I will pursue med.. But my parents are really decided that if Ill go for it..they will support me no matter what..

God, if being a doctor someday is really intended for me,. Pls. shower me with motivation and extra initiative to reach my goals.. Please give me every positivity in the world  that I may need. Please help me make my mistakes a catalyst to succeed.

Lord, take over me in times of doubts like these.

from this topic to that, i migrate..

2nd sem is over at last!! Ive been cramming so bad this past weeks.. and yeah, I had a hell out’a time and Im glad its over.. Ive been dying to come up with at least a single decent post.. you know, a post that will conform with my own standards and your reading standards as well.. :p

yeah, break ako this holy week and ill be back to school next week to get my report cards and enroll the next day for my summer duties.. atleast i dont have to cram late at night coz summer duty lang yun.. its like im really working na.. kewl.

I miss blog hopping and dropping comments to your blogs.. I really like reading and last summer, my eyes were really sore reading blogs.. walang humpay.. haha.. Im kinda excited coz technically, I’ll be celebrating my first year as an active blogger. meaning, yung nagdecide talaga ako maging active sa blogging, yung ma-maintain ko yun.. at eto na nga yun.. wee : )

a while ago,

we went to Sm not knowing na maundy thursday ngayon.. ayun, sarado ang SM hahaha… how cool is that.. poooteek!! whoa, parang sabi ni God na anak, hinay hinay na muna.. puwede ba pumirme ka muna sa bahay mo?! toink…

another random thing…

I received a txt msg from a friend..

” txt frboom to 2332 and you will receive a 100 free load!! wag mo sasabihin sa iba, secret lang natin to!! ang saya!!”"

what I did?

ginawa ko naman.. ahha (halata bang uhaw sa load.. )

then what happened..

txt alert!!

“your free boom tarat ring back tone will be activated in 24 hours..”

….OMFG, ang gago ko talaga.. hindi ko naisip yun ah.. haay.. naloko na nga ako ng ganun sa pasaload dati eh.. atleast free ring back lang yun..whatever..

the next day, a friend called me early in the morning… ayun, usap usap.. kwentuhan.. then after the call. I remembered the boom tarat ring back tone.. argh!!! My friend must have thought na baliw na baliw ako dun.. hahay… toink talaga..

ayun, in-off ko na yung ring back na yun…

………………………….

As we proceed getting buzzed,
The envious ones,
Hatin’ but they can’t take they eyes off us,
But we don’t see none of that,
They playin’ my jam,
And the floor is packed,
So ya’ll need to migrate up out the door.

again, wala lang.. I like this lyrics. kewl.

P.S

this post did not meet my standards, pero still pinost ko pa rin.. hehe..

have a safe holy week

in between..

my blog is literally bleeding for an update. Sadly, my creative juices isnt working for the past weeks due to academic restraints.. My requirements are overflowing , plus the exams.. and so many things in between. I just want to clarify that this is not an indefinite blog leave. As soon this semester ends and my workload decreases again, a big chunk of my time will be dedicated to blogging again