Have you ever felt alone yet you’re surrounded by a bunch of people whom you consider as your company? Have you ever realized that youre getting intermittently happy-melancholic in a weird sense? I am feeling all of these right now and yeah its strange. I thought that its alright just to be my self, alright to enjoy being single for a while.. at least Im free from commitment, free from the responsibilities that comes in package in a relationship. coz its like a package deal once you enter into commiting yourself ayt? I feel like Im one hell of a loser now. Dont get me so wrong folks.. I can flirt and court and enter into a relationship but its just that im the type of guy who believes that you cant hurry love.. ( and fuck, I cant believe that Im getting so cheesy. ) Itll come. but when? Im in for a fresh start.. and Im waiting for the signal to come.
Archive for August, 2008
bum-ed again
Its been a cold, rainy day.. and laziness somehow entered the picture. Yes. laziness to the extreme. laziness at its finest.
A planned day originally, with things sort of lined up to be done after attending the 10 am mass.. but I am sort of a loser with regards to following my desired slash planned activities which made me a total loser of some sort today as well. hmm. the bed is so comfy so I decided to take a nap. the tv programs are cool so I watched a couple of sort at the boob tube. friends texted me, inviting me for a house party and I really wasn’t able to resist the fun across and I went. and now, its past 12 in the morning. I am here, staring at the monitor, thinking, contemplating about the totality of my day. I was unsuccessful coz I was not able to fulfill my purpose for today which makes me a numb, dumb dude again. yeah I am.
I cant do anything about it. I maybe dumb, but I had fun anyways so whats the purpose of sour grapping to the highest level? I had fun so its cool.. so maybe that makes me a numb, dumb, cool dude huh? I guess so. 
I also dream of..
..creating a small documentary, If only my schedule will somehow permit me,, then Id love to create one. yeah, only a small documentary about some sort.. maybe something about the issues of college students? that would be cool right? I dunno, media entices me as well. Id love to learn things about creating a docu. Id love to create one, an amateur one.. that would be cool. hahah. maybe pag may free time na, ill try to make one and ill post the video here. ayos yun ayt? anyways, enough muna.. gotta get me some sleep. mahaba pa ang aaraling notes bukas, its so pilled up na.
Ang sama talaga ng naging pakiramdam ko these past few days. Im better now, pero I was literally not in good condition from tuesday till thursday. Ubo, sipon, lagnat, Allergy. then naging sinusitis sa umaga.. may night sweats then cold sweats naman sa umaga, pakiramdam ko tuloy PTB na lang ang kulang e. thank God wala namang asthma na nakidagdag. Absent ako last tuesday, hindi talaga kinaya ng katawan ko. I actually woke up at four to revise, nag try talaga akong mag aral kasi hindi ko na nagawang mag aral the night before sa sama ng pakiramdam ko.. then nung nasa jeep nako, ayun, allergic reaction at its best, hindi na kinaya ng system ko. naisip ko na lang na pag pinilit ko pang pumasok, malamang matuluyan na ako.. heheh.. ang adik actually, ang laki laki kong tao, bihirang magkasakit pero once tinamaan ako, ayun pang-admit na sa hospital ang dating ko. LOL
off topic..
I had my phone installed with an application. It’s a browser called Opera Mini.. Its so damn usefull coz I can literally browse websites for free! I can visit my blog, friendster, multiply and other sites.. siguradong makakatipid kami sa kuryente nyan dahil mababawasan na ang internet hours ko sa pc kasi I can use my phone instead… and boy, ang bilis nya. lupet! hahah.
Its about time that I try to squeeze my brain juices, hell yeah., the academic thing’s a sure factor on why I was not able to UPDATE my blog for crying out loud!! and I don’t want to rant here about my simple depressions on time management and stuffs, actually this blog and you people have become my sanctuary. yes! I really never thought that blogging will give me such a light feeling.. Once Ive poured my silly thoughts, then at least things in some aspect starts to be o.k.. its my comfort zone.. yes. just like chocolate. lol
I don’t expect you to be delighted with what I am typing now. I dunno, its just that my inner ego is still not yet in its perfect form, maybe thats the reason on why I can’t push through with the second season. Ive got so many creative things in mind that I want to do here but once I turn the PC on, then I indulge me’self in reading different articles and visiting other sites without me noticing that hell, my creative stamina starts to diminish as well. down down down. nuff about that. lol
This week’s mixed heaven and hell..
got a very bad cold..
and its coming out on its own.. eww
I hope you get what I mean.
my blowing reflex’s got all shut down.
In laymans term, ” yung sipon ko ay tumutulong mag isa, di ko na kailangang suminga” LOL
and yes.. new phone. Thank you papa, Thank you mama 
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