You know what?

Somehow, my life changed a bit after graduation..  Well it’s not really my life but probably my lifestyle. Sometimes, it’s me and my boring lifestyle alone. There were also times that it’s me living my life to the extreme..  It depends. Life is really unpredictable after college. I am now beginning to feel that I aint getting any younger, that I need to settle sooner or later..  Yet, I still want to try a lot of things.. coz I know that the chances of trying them will lessen eventually as time pass by because responsibility will surely take its place and I know that with that, I need to work hard for me to become an able provider.. both to my parents and siblings, and to my future family as well. You know, these realizations sometimes scares me,.. Maybe I am scared of failing, from the other’s and from my own expectations too. It is really scary but I am more scared of the possible things that I might miss if I won’t try right? Might as well try.

I’ve experienced a lot these past few years, and to say that I have not learned from them  is a complete understatement.. It helped me be who I am today. I am still growing as I keep on discovering a lot of things and meeting new people. I see that the world can be sometimes cruel, yes but it is still a matter of perspective and we only need to learn one thing and that is to appreciate the beauty of the things around us.. Though we must not be so contented with what’s there to see for we also need to dream for us to be better.

Honestly, I still got some issues within which drives me mad.. Sometimes, I can’t even sleep well because of it..  I can’t even tell my closest friends because it is a delicate matter (at least in my opinion).. Don’t fret, I was somehow able to vent my feelings out.. with some people who  understand what I’ve been through… they are really a great help… I learned from them.. and now, it’s not a big issue after all. It’s just funny because those people who helped me were the ones who I least expected to be involved.  It’s just matter of dealing with things, It will come, you just have to meet it when it did.