thinking over

I’m really out of words every time I try to contemplate to come up with a post regarding my feelings when it comes to fulfilling my dreams. Maybe, I was so anxious about it over the years and and as I try to put my thoughts into words, part of my mind just want to hide it and for me, its not doing any good.. Thats why, right now, I am trying so hard to brag about it. At least to share some thoughts with you..

This coming school year will be may last year in college and one year is very short.. Short in a sense that, my time to decide or deliberate rather solely, independently, all by my self  about pursuing my pasture for a greener one is really coming close to needing a concrete and firm answer..

Yes, I am talking about the Medicine thing. I had brag about it here a few times already and I am bragging about it here again for the thought is really pressing into my nerves  more and more these days.

I am just a bit anxious with regards to my feeling of reaching my dreams. I mean, come on, we all have doubts inside us right?? but the problem with me, honestly is that sometimes, I have simple doubts that tends to become large and it affects me a lot..

I really want to be a doctor but there are some factors that made me think twice on weather I should pursue it or not?

… I’m just an average student, I am not keen into memorizing but I am a wide reader.. hmmm, I guess it kind of make sense that success is not purely based on intelligence. Okay, Im not gonna be plastic, I maybe a bit above average (except for math!) but sometimes, I really do tend to get bored and that results to sleeping instead of reviewing.. hhmm. well, I guess I really need to have a lot of initiative.

I am thinking about the expenses  if ever I will pursue med.. But my parents are really decided that if Ill go for it..they will support me no matter what..

God, if being a doctor someday is really intended for me,. Pls. shower me with motivation and extra initiative to reach my goals.. Please give me every positivity in the world  that I may need. Please help me make my mistakes a catalyst to succeed.

Lord, take over me in times of doubts like these.

in between..

my blog is literally bleeding for an update. Sadly, my creative juices isnt working for the past weeks due to academic restraints.. My requirements are overflowing , plus the exams.. and so many things in between. I just want to clarify that this is not an indefinite blog leave. As soon this semester ends and my workload decreases again, a big chunk of my time will be dedicated to blogging again

Im feeling weird.. TRUST ME!!

Im feeling WEIRD..

yeah I am..

OH MY GOD..

IM STARTING TO LIKE SCHOOL..

: )

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haha, dont get me wrong.. Its not like I never liked school since kindergarten.. Ofcourse nagustuhan ko din yun kahit papano.. But there were times that I do get bored.. a few moths ago, hindi lang sometimes, but all the time!! haha.. You try to see my blockmates fones and youll see my pictures there.. My pictures na caught in the act na mejo papikit na ng konti yung mata ko while were in the middle of our Medical Nursing Class.. hehe..

But what I’m feeling right now, Its totally different.

Why am I feeling this over- enthusiastic feeling? That right now, I want to get out of my seat. Take a bath and go to school?!

THIS IS NOT ME.. IM POSSESSED.. hehehehe..

“What a day, A perfect balance between work and play”

That was my Group message last saturday… I had a fun time with studies, and at the same time, had a fun time with other activities.. I wish that this feeling will last till I graduate. : )

Last sem, pag nag text ako or nag-GM during weekdays, oh man, milagro yun.. hehe but now, I was able to get a life out of my studies.. I guess less stress lang talaga pag hindi mo iniisip yung mga mga stressors mo academically..mas nakakapag-focus pa nga ako eh.. hehe..

Nakita ko na yung nawawala kong G-Tec na blue..

wow, Medical Class ko na uli bukas : )__

Mas na-appreciate ko ngayong makipag text kapag school days.. haha. kewl

Oh man, bibili ako ng frappuccino after school bukas!!

pero yung ultimate favorite ko munang cookies and cream Zagu grande sa lunch break : )

Ang professional ko palang tingnan pag suot ko yung Nursing Uniform ko.. either yung campus or yung pang-duty.. haha..

Tapos ang geek pang tingnan pag dala ko yung isang dangkal sa kapal kong textbook.. hehe

“P____g I_a!! 16 Units yung major moh?! hehe.. nakakaaliw pagmasdan yung mga uber mangha nilang muka pag nalalaman nila yun.. yabang.. hehe

………..I just hope that me being so enthusiastic with my acads today will last.. haha.. Ang weird talaga.. well 7 hours to go and nasa school na uli ako.. : )

My former motto sa acads ko:

” Postponement of pleasure for a lifetime goal.”

The updated one:

“Perfect Balance between Work and Play!”